Thursday, August 7, 2008

If I should die before I wake ...

I was raised on the "Now I lay me down to sleep" prayer. When I learned it, the phrase, "If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take" was part of the prayer. I vaguely remember hearing that some folks raised objections to having that in the prayer because it may create emotional scars in the children or some such as that. I guess it might, but it also presents a realistic understanding of the human condition. Regardless of what age we are, we are dying. I think I could argue that humans begin the aging process and, thus, the dying process, at the moment of birth.

Within the last few weeks, the Carnegie-Mellon professor, Randy Pausch - he who was widely, and justifiably celebrated for "The Last Lecture" given at CMU - died from pancreatic cancer. While many others have suggested that a person should always live as if they only had a brief time left on this mortal plain, there was something about Pausch's lecture that captured the imagination of all who heard it or read it.

On BeliefNet, http://blog.beliefnet.com/beyondblue/2008/08/10-things-i-would-change-if-i.html, Therese J. Borchard has a blog entitled Beyond Blue. She asked what things would you change if you knew you were going to die. Here is her list:
1. I would stress less about the small stuff.
2. I would categorize everything as small stuff.
3. I would worry less about people's approval.
4. I would make more time for coffee and phone calls with friends.
5. I would visit my mom and my sisters more.
6. I would eat more dessert and not care as much about the widening waist line.
7. I would laugh more.
8. I would publish my journal online--every thought I have, no matter how stupid or insane. Oh wait, I already do that.
9. I would spend more time outdoors.
10. I would eat breakfast with my kids, lunch with Eric, and dinner with my family.

As I thought about her list, I did as I always do and wondered about: "How much time would I have to do the things?" "Would I have enough money on which to live and to do what I want to do?" "Would there be specific actions I would take; if so, what are they?" Of course, I think my questions probably fall outside the spirit of her question, but these details would make a difference in what I might do. With all of these caveats, let me indulge in a list - subject to change, of course and not in order of priority:
1. I would try to talk to all of the people who made a positive difference in my life and thank them.
2. I would start working my way through the 100 greatest books of all time.
3. I would spend more evenings watching classic comedies with Vicki and laughing as much as I could.
4. I would tell my boys how proud I am of them - I actually do this, but not often enough.
5. I would start conversations with people I see in book stores.
6. I would gather a group of folks with whom I could talk about current issues and struggle with classic human questions.
7. I would begin learning to speak another language.
8. I would purchase land on which I could plant things.
9. I would try to find all the people who I failed and thank them for their patience with me.
10. I would spend more time doing all the things that Vicki likes and I don't just to see her enjoy the moment.

Should you make such a list, what would you do differently if you were told you would soon die?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

"If I die before you wake"

Nowhere on either list did a see a suggestion that one should consider risking what life they have left to fight for the right of others, strangers, to live free as God intended, and yet that is the long and rich tradition of so many Americans. If the hundreds of millions of people living and worshipping in freedom are not a testament to American exceptionalism, and God's special blessings bestowed on our Country, I do not know what is. The following is the finest and most moving testimony to this sacrifice and service that I have ever seen!

http://www.flashdemo.net/gallery/wake/index.htm